and, just like that, i'm done...

i'm home now. seems weird, ya know? like, to think i'm not going back. i'm done with school. anyways, i've had a fairly ridiculous semester, and i love relient k, and somehow, these words totally fit the situation. so, thanks relient k for supplying the words once again to describe exactly my feelings...

"i made it through the year, and i did not even collapse;
gotta say, "thank God, for that."
i'm torn between what keeps me whole
and what tears me in half;
i'll fall apart or stay intact.

with tired eyes i stumble back to bed;
i need to realize my sorry life's not hanging by a thread,
at least not yet.

so look at me now,
it's finally christmas and i'm home;
head indoors, to get out of this weather.
and i don't know how,
but the closest friends i've ever known are all inside
singing together,
singing merry christmas, here's to many more.

it always hurt to be all by myself this time of year,
a cold and lonely christmas eve.
and living out my days alone,
well that had been my deepest fear,
but You promised You won't leave.

i look towards the east and see a star.
Jesus Christ, it's blessed my life to know just who you are;
You are my hope.

so look at me now,
it's finally christmas and i'm home;
head indoors, to get out of this weather.
and i don't know how,
but the closest friends i've ever known are all inside
singing together,
singing merry christmas, here's to many more.

deck the halls with mistletoe;
may all your heavy burdens go
up the chimney in a cloud of smoke
the fire's burning bright.
strike up the band and play the tune,
cause christmas will be here and soon;
you'll hear our song in every room
this merry christmas night.

fa la la la la la la la ...

singing merry christmas, here's to many more..."

-- relient k: merry christmas, here's to many more

only One did that for me...

"follow the star to a place unexpected
would you believe after all we’ve projected
a child in a manger
lowly and small, the weakest of all
unlikeliest hero, wrapped in his mothers shawl
just a child
is this Who we’ve waited for?

cause how many kings, stepped down from their thrones?
how many lords have abandoned their homes?
how many greats have become the least for me?
how many gods have poured out their hearts
to romance a world that has torn all apart?
how many fathers gave up their sons for me?

bringing our gifts for the newborn Savior
all that we have whether costly or meek
because we believe
gold for his honor and frankincense for his
pleasure and myrrh for the cross he’ll suffer
do you believe, is this who we’ve waited for?
it’s who we’ve waited for

how many kings, stepped down from their thrones?
how many lords have abandoned their homes?
how many greats have become the least for me?
how many gods have poured out their hearts
to romance a world that has torn all apart?
how many fathers gave up their sons for me?
only One did that for me

all for me
all for you
all for me
all for you...

how many kings, stepped down from their thrones?
how many lords have abandoned their homes?
how many greats have become the least?
how many gods have poured out their hearts
to romance a world that has torn all apart?
how many fathers gave up their sons for me?
only One did that for me...

all for me
all for you..."

-- downhere: how many kings

i heart relient k.

they certainly have a way with words.

"it's always nice to look out the window
and see those very first few flakes of snow,
and later on we can go outside
and create the impression of an angel that just fell from the sky.

when february rolls around i'll roll my eyes,
turn a cold shoulder to these even colder skies,
and, by the fire, my heart it heaves a sigh
for the green grass waiting on the other side.

it's always winter but never christmas;
it seems this curse just can't be lifted.
yet in the midst of all this ice and snow,
our hearts stay warm cause they are filled with hope.

it'd be so nice to look out the window
and see the leaves on the trees begin to show.
the birds would congregate and sing
a song of birth, a song of newer things.

the wind would calm, and the sun would shine.
i'd go outside, and i'd squint my eyes.
but for now i will simply just withdraw,
sit here, and wish for this world to thaw.

it's always winter but never christmas;
it seems this curse just can't be lifted.
yet in the midst of all this ice and snow,
our hearts stay warm cause they are filled with hope.

and everything it changed overnight;
this dying world, You brought it back to life.
and deep inside i felt things
shifting everything was melting
away oh away,
and you gave us the most beautiful of days.

cause when it's always winter but never christmas
sometimes it feels like You're not with us
but deep inside our hearts we know
that You are here and we will not lose hope..."

-- relient k: in like a lion (always winter)